Dawn

Ashley Esteva

GSR 102

DAWN

I am going to start something, kind of life/ perspective changing for me. I am going to do my blogs but I am going to write them as I see fit. So, please, read on and make your own opinion on my views and thoughts.

This reminds me of so many things throughout the story

• The 90’s
• Myself between Barnsey and Dawn
• Music
• Letting go
• Travel and exploration
• Pre conceived ideas

I think the story was based in the 1990’s. That time period was my childhood. I still think and will forever advocate that the 90’s were the best decade ever! The cassette tapes were the big thing back then and there is so much nostalgia attached to that little piece of plastic. The mix tape was the quintessential object of that time. Also the awesome scene of the time was British punk rock. Admittedly I was a little young for this movement of sorts but in my later years I somehow have gotten back to this craziness.

I think this is sort of where the story begins to remind me, well it reminds me of myself. Barnsey was who I was, I was a meek person who didn’t really go out of my comfort zone very often and I went along with the status quo. I did not want to make a scene. I think that is what Barnsey does all his life and even when he meets Dawn he is still reserved and is very conscious of how other people may view him. he is very cautious about what he says or does or who he hangs out with and then when he begins to talk with dawn he is exposed to new ideas and a different perspective. Dawn is who I have wanted to emulate, I know it seems outlandish but I was that kid in school, the one who was just a little TOO different and I saw it as Barnsey did, I saw it as being a problem. Until recently I began thinking that maybe it isn’t to late to try and be whoever I want to be. I want to fulfill something in my life that I will do it. I think Dawn realized long ago that there is so much out there to see and do and that she cant live how everyone else is living if it does not agree with her soul. She needs to live for herself because she is all she has for the rest of her life. It take great courage and self-strength to be able to be who you truly are on the inside and it seems to me that Dawn was capable of releasing her true self and letting it show on the outside.

The music was very telling for me. when my soul is angry or frantic or happy my music matches with what I listen to. Barnsey was so calm and reserved on the outside that all of his emotions were bottled within him and the only way to express those feeling was through his music. Dawn’s music reflected her as well, she was so outwardly expressive that her heart was calm, she was relatively at peace with herself and was able to focus on thought instead of rage when she listened to her music. Music is the one thing that tells the world more about us than any amount of words we could ever come up with ourselves.

T.B.C…maybe